I Dont Even Trust Me by Richard Shekari from Abuja, Fct Nigeria

i don't even trust me

verse 1:
even if you gave me strength to stand alone,
i’d still bow before your throne.
even if you placed the world into my hands,
lord, i’d still let you take command.

chorus:
take it all, take my heart, lord, heal my past.
have it all, lord, take what’s left.
take it all, take my heart, lord, heal my past.
have it all, lord, take what’s left.

verse 2:
’cause i can’t even trust myself,
not with my own soul.
i have fallen short of your glory, lord—
i won’t trust myself with my own life.

chorus:
take it all, take my heart, lord, heal my past.
have it all, lord, take what’s left.
take it all, take my heart, lord, heal my past.
have it all, lord, take what’s left.

bridge:
i fought and stumbled, thought my heart was strong,
took the road of my choosing, but i got it wrong.
for a decade, i wandered, chasing empty dreams,
till you found me in the wreckage, drowning in the stream.

chorus:
take it all, take my heart, lord, heal my past.
have it all, lord, take what’s left.
take it all, take my heart, lord, heal my past.
have it all, lord, take what’s left.

verse 3:
i have walked through the fire, thinking i knew the way,
held the map tight in my trembling hands.
who will point me in the right direction?
i lost my course in the darkness; from the start, i lost my way.
i give up, lord—i surrender. oh, messiah, you are the way. *chorus*

copyright 2025 richard shekari.
written, produced and performed by richard shekari.