Mediocrity by John Ludi from Madison United States

i awoke and realized that all my purposes are vain
and every path that i choose leads to another set of chains.
my will to transcend the world leads to more worldly pain,
as seemingly the worlds intent is to drive me insane.
i deserve a break...
my same old strident ego keeps on making its demands
while my juvenile emotions keep me from being a man.
any solid ground where i tread just dissolves into sand
and everything just falls apart no matter how i plan.
i deserve a break...from me! mediocrity.
someone's getting in my way, a malevolence i can't see
who drags me into situations of grief and misery.
he sets me up for failure and observes my fall with glee
(yet in my quiet moments i know that malevolence is just me).
this empty life, this hallow curse, every tear, every fear, i get worse and worse.
all failed glories i have stalked, every stumbling mile i walk,
every well-meant plan that fails, all potential freedoms jailed...
it's not my fault! (it's all my fault!) blame me? blame me!